I vape cbd oil and calms me alittle

I have so far refused to take opiates, even after oral and hand surgeries. I have seen opiod addiction turn good, honest people into thieves and even losing custody of their children.

I started with burning, itching pain under the skin, on med by Rheumatologist. When I start itching, due to stress or just because, I use Blue-emu cream. I use it on my entire back once a week, other night for no reason my right wrist started itching, greased it with Blue-emu, after about 5 minutes itching stopped. Also used Stopain roll on, that helps my upper arm and shoulder.
Good luck.

True that’s what I don’t want!!! But my pain is getting worse

Does ONYONE after 40 plus years of pain and tons of pills just give up and go to pain management and take opiates to take the edge off so they can have SOME quality of life?????? I have been on all of the lupus and kidney disease drugs at high doses but i am blessed with sleep I just wake up screaming in pain. When is enough, enough? I’m tired of just surviving.